It amazes me how music can influence, and even take over, our lives. We associate our thoughts, ideas, and memories into our own songs, or in others we listen to, and bury them. Sometimes to remember them, and sometimes to forget. It's OK to listen to the songs that we love and in which we associate a positiveness with that inspires us, but have we ever listened to a song that we've tried to forget? Whether we hear it by accident, or we think, "Oh man, I used to love this song... wonder why I stopped listening to it...", suddenly every emotion we ever tied to that song is displayed for our minds to see and re-experience. Sometimes its a burning sensation in our stomachs and hearts. Other times its a crushing pressure on our chests. Whatever the feeling, we will then do whatever it takes to push these thoughts out of our minds. It becomes a battle to survive the song and a vow to ourselves to never listen to it again. Every once in awhile we toy with the thought of hearing these songs, just to see if we've reached the safe zone and are finally free of the memories they're attached to. Sometimes we're successful, but for most, we'll never escape it. If we can accept that, then we're golden.
Often times, there are the songs we love and have a great memory or even occurrence when listening to it. But what we don't realize until too late, of course, is that sometimes even happy nostalgia can bring us haunting sadness. Suddenly we become one of those people who are living in the past and we begin to wonder what happened to those days; to that life. Nothing to cry about, for in life, things change and we must strive to make these days the greatest... but we are known to have our humbling moments.
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